is it just impossible to please all the people around? I  thought deep within my core and asked  myself? did I ever commit  to please? nor did I promised to take you out of your misery?  Really,  I have seen a shadow diminish within. I do feel your misery. but then I asked  myself again? do I really deserve to be  played around like a doll?                  Well these questions never seems to end. Trust me I've seen or at least heard of them many times before. but what I  really seek is the answer to these numb feeling. Then I had a  thought ,  of seeing myself above, rising thru the ashes of  them graves of the people I love,  who carried a dire thought to devour me alive.                  I searched for my answer hunted by the images of the vary people I loved seeking to suck the life out of me . I trembled, I crawled to fulfill their wishes and  their thoughts  by sacrificing my own  imagination.  Imagination of  not a perfect  world but rather  a world filled eternal love that would make you forget about a world filled ignorance. I am in a look out for a world that would see myself as me.   I  am used to this. I do find bliss in ignorance.  tbc..........