I am Nescient.
I am not just a name but a person too.
I belong to someone and someone belongs to me.
I am someoneýs daughter.
I have a sister.
I have a family.
Family that I havenýt seen for decades.
Family that I once used to know.
Do I know them anymore?
They tell me stories of how I used to be
I listen, as if for the very first time,
Wondering who they are talking about.

720201920 is my social security number
I have just become a number in the computer.
Thatýs how government judges me.
I am in a land thatýs not mine.
I speak a language thatýs not mine.
I eat food thatýs not mine.
I breathe and live a life, thatýs not mine.
I am in constant fearý.of being deported
To MY land?
But still I pray to stay here?
I would rather stay here being illegal then go home
BUT Everyday I say "Jai Nepal"
And talk about how to improve homeland
Being very patriotic?

I have friends
Not like the ones back home though
Friends then never let me feel alone
Over here, everyone is busy
No one has time, even me?
I have my own tradition, culture and religion
That I made fun of
As I try to fit in here
And now I canýt fit in anywhere
Cause I canýt let go of my past.
I once knew nescient, but that isnýt me.
In the mirror I see a complete stranger
But yet I know her
And that person isnýt me.

I appreciate all your fan letters...It is flattering to know that you cannot stop thinking about me....Taken into consideration that many of you regard me as a role model, I feel a sense of obligation to respond to your fan mail...

Redstone- I suggest you type your comments on Microsoft Word and use spellcheck and then copy and paste it onto Sajha...It is imperative you take these precautions to avoid looking like the idiot which we now know you are..

DP- Bravo, bravo!..Well done, Sherlock...You have uncovered my true identity...Yes, it is I, Sonika NY alias "Rameshbabu."...Great detective work, idiot.

Confused- Congratulations! You are now officially Sajha's biggest coward..Only a nerd with no life is fearful of being banned from a messageboard...LOL...you're pathetic.

Lady Croft- You "Bumbed" the cliffs??...That's a great pun, Lesbo..Did you have to work at being such an imbecile, or was this a god-given gift?

Stepfather- I am your biological father. When I first met your mother she was licking carpets for a living. That all changed after she got a taste of the delicious glob from my knob...She used to beg me to put some ghyu on her dhal bhatt...I allowed her to taste my phlegm, provided that she never bore me a son...The day you were conceived was the day I left that old wench...but now I realize I have made a mistake...You grew up with no father figure in your life and began calling yourself "stepfather" to compensate for this void...Your mother was too busy pleasuring herself, and did not have the time to instill any discipline or morals in her son...That being said, Im sorry I walked out on you...I want to to know that daddy always loves you...Wherever you may be.

Meera: Thank you for welcoming back.I wasn't planning to but too much drinking is never good (an alcoholic,pothead and chain smoker??)

Confused: Everyone is confused, us included.

Lady_Croft: Really appreciate "bumbing" the cliffs for me.I was going to use parachute anyways.But gal, you saved my life.

Kalakinsthan: Waiting for CPR as you let me fall.

DP- Can't be Sonika NY as there is no mention of words like "get life" or "duh" (ramesh babu now shouldn't i be entitled with the Sherlock title??)

Redstone: Murkha dekhi sajjhan daraye, if you know what I mean.

Rameshbabu: Greatly disappointed as there was no insults for me.I was hoping, wishing and parying for more.You always bring smile on my face.And are you always this funny or is it just an act??

Its just an act..

But I'm glad you were "wishing, hoping, and parying for more"...Whatever "parying" means, Im sure you do it well..

There is the obligatory insult...Now go jump off a cliff.

maile bhandai thiye, timile yeha post garera timi r.ko. choro. bhayeko kura pramanit garne chau bhanera ....eheheh......aakhir jhadkelo choro kasko? eheheh
aaja ma gaurabwanwit bhayeko chhu, rameshbabu, timile malai aafno jhadkelo babu swikareko ma......aakhir jun din timri aama ma sanga poila gayeki thiye, maile tyahi din dekhi timi bata yo apekchha gareko thiye eheheh
yas khusiyali ma aaja rati timri aama lai oo.pa.chi ra gho.pachi dubai eheheh

feri feri post gara hai rameshbabu

aafno jhadkela bau ko request lai mana, eheheh

hahaha, dude, allright good luck...hope i wont see you again out here ...:)

btw, how did u know i was a nerd, ??? great work detective, ..

Kalankiiii Damn !! How could you let Neiscent fall ! and STILL not administer her CPR? :o:o

Now you have added another KALANKA on meh ! :(:(:(:(:(


P.S. Neiscent should we brutally murder Kalanki?....hmm...I have my own reasons....:p:p

*thinks not WORTH replying to rameshbabu...u have to do better than THAT to capture my undivided attention* but then,

... your clarification on my sexual orientation is appreciated frm the top and bottom of meh heart (and also frm de other bottom). I been tellin' the guys not to hit on meh and they simply don't get it !! Dhanyabad again.

Lady Croft,

Bhalaii ko Zamana rahena.

I was saying I'd save you and let Neiscent fall BECAUSE I know you know how to save lives. :P GOT IT? Show little bit of your compoundari and Nesceint will stand up and start dancing on Jhyaure (Khwanchyang, Khwanchyang gardai)... I never said I'd not "administer" CPR on Neiscent. I'd Love to :P. Infact, I'd volunteer to do that myself.:P Just think about it, what would happen if I save her and let you fall? What if Neiscent doesn't know how to "save" lives? Yettikai JHAKRI basdine bhanya? Jhan ta I was trying to save you both.... kyaaa GHOR kalyug. :D:D

>>Neiscent should we brutally murder Kalanki?....
Why me? eh...
Lady, you don't need any weapons to kill me hau, just choose and use some of your words which might be as sharp as a razor. I'd be dead before I die. :P

Aaah, bhaat badhi bho... :( no hulchul... nahiiii.

NESCIENT de Janta wants more of your writings! :D

Ama ma ma ma ma! katro long explanation hau! Tut!

KALANKI, Pardonez moi, I am so eeeSTU pitt! As both Neiscent and me are still writing here it does mean we are both alive and safe, ain't it?.... tyo agi Kalanki mode, ma sajha bus jam bhayera ni ringata lagera eeeSTU pitt / Brad Pitt/ Plaat Pitt sappai bhayeko! TUT ! ;)

On a serious note how the hell am I supposed to save lives? I only carry guns hau! At de mo, I still have one last round left in my Sub Uzi frm my last journey to the Egyptian tombs and I think you make a bootyfool target pratice board ! Yeso ali heri deu na yeta khai! Eeesmile ! :D


P.S. testo jabarjasti samatera CPR administer garna NA PAI ! grrrrrrrrrrrr !

Lady_Croft: Let me get high and/or drunk again :)